Tuesday, June 16, 2009

This Feels Too Weird...

The semester has just ended for me. Just had my final paper a couple of hours back and ahh, feel so uncertain and fearful about how it's gonna turn out. It was bloody difficult to say the least. Or maybe it's just me, but I hope not.

Feels weird this feeling...Somehow I just don't feel the thrill of exams finishing like I used to in high school. You know, that feeling of absolute freedom and relief? I don't think I've felt that way in the last three exams I've taken. Perhaps the last time it felt really really good to finish my exams was when I sat for my WAUFP foundation paper. Maybe if today had ended well, it would feel much better.

But then again, maybe not. It feels too weird. Like there is absolutely nothing to do. The last week or two has just been absolutely jam-packed with endless nerd-ing in the library and I think that my brain is still telling me that if I am not studying or doing anything useful, then I'm just wasting my time and I ought to be ashamed of myself. Rushing for everything has been all I've been doing for the past week and things have just so abruptly come to a halt. I don't think my mind is in tuned to that change yet.

Lols, first post in almost 2 months. I doubt anyone even visits this page anymore lols. But with all this spare time I have in my hands, I shall try to make time for blogging.

Arghh, I want to make it through today's paper so badly....it will probably be bothering me until my results come out, by when I will be even more nervous to find out how I did. So annoying. Anyways, to all those who are still halfway through exams, best of luck...it will all be over soon. To the mcl-ers, hang in there...you're nearly there.